Satisfied this Saturday

My day started out quite nice, perhaps a little earlier than I would have liked, but I can't complain. Everyone was thrilled with their first day of spring break. Kids watched Saturday morning cartoons and I stayed in my pj's until 9 o'clock. N slept in after his late night shift. Luckily Verbena called an hour ahead before our coffee date. I had completely forgot. It was great to catch up with her. We ran into each other at the post this past week. It's been since soccer season since we've seen each other. She's great as usual.
I came home motivated to purge. After N went to work, we headed down to the basement and started to prepare for the Walleye Festival! Boy, did we make progress! Half the basement still is a disaster. I have boxes to sort out and toys to part with. The kids did really well, but I wish we could part with more stuffed animals. I don't know why I am so weak to influence them more. I guess it's my guilt of the other things they had to part with throughout our moves.
I have quite a few garbage bags and boxes ready for pricing. Maybe I'll work on some tonight, we'll see how tired I am at the end of the day. Everyone needs a bath tonight and nails clipped. It's amazing how grooming and cleansing can be hard to keep up with times three. What will be one more? She won't be on their schedule for awhile. They stayed in their pj's all day and loved it. I guess they really needed a break. I think my coffee date helped me to have a nice day at home with them. It was great to sneak away for an hour before having them to myself. Tomorrow we have church. I hope to get more prepared for the garage sale. The more ready I am before this baby comes, the easier it will be the end of April.
I can't believe today is the last day of March. It seemed to have flown by. Some days seemed longer than others, depending on how much pressure I felt from this baby girl. I am trying to be patient with her arrival. I've never felt so impatient with a pregnancy. I was able to arrange for New Moon to come over and watch the group on Thursday for my appointment. These girls, what ever would I do without them! I won't get through this without them, I know that for sure. Last week the doc was on call and really behind. We got there at 10:30 and didn't leave until close to 1 o'clock. The lobby was full of moms, grandma's and a few toddlers. I couldn't imagine having all of our group in that small room as well. Luckily, we won't have to. That was only the second time she has ever been behind like that. I can't complain.
I'm trying to figure out plans for Seven and his birthday. With so much in the air, it's hard to plan. I'm not sure how we will work it out. N works on Sundays, his birthday is on a Sunday. Perhaps I should see if we can celebrate it this week during spring break? That is really last minute notice though. We'll see what we can work out. It's my next item to organize.

It's all the same

No change, I am in the exact same situation I was last week. All measurements are the same. I don't know why I am frustrated with that. I am 36 weeks and normally would not be so impatient. Things have changed over the years, I didn't realize how I would feel at the end. Previous pregnancies, sure I had toddlers to keep up with, but I guess more patience with how I felt. Maybe it is harder to keep up with big kids. Today, I struggled walking away from the park to the car, walking across a store to the exit, etc.
The younger two were after each other again today. They just irritate each other in small ways and it gets old, fast. I believe this is just the beginning of this behavior. I remember behavior like this with my siblings. A sign of growing kids.
Last night I slept better than I have in awhile. I had forced myself to stay awake and had made cards with Zinnia until much later than I usually stay up. The extra hour helped me sleep better. Last night, I was out before 10 and here I sit at 4am, awake. My bed became too uncomfortable. I'm in the recliner. I could use a snack, but the heart burn and idea of moving are keeping me in the chair.
I'm still only at 15 lbs for my total weight for this pregnancy. I was curious how much I'd add to it at the end, but so far not much. I am sure she will still come out as chubby as can be, following in suit with her siblings. Still not much name progress. We may have a winner, but it is not yet confirmed. I don't think N will make up his mind until we are in the hospital room.
Missed the opportunity to Skype with Baby Orchid today. I was just too tired. The kids had been arguing and I just had to get them to bed. Gma made it happen for Baby Orchid. She is the sweetest baby. I can't wait for the end of May to get here to see her. Four can't wait either. Today, she whined saying "I want my Grandma." and she really wanted to go to Frankenmuth. Is this my child or what? I love Frankenmuth. Even if we don't do anything but walk the streets, it's still my favorite MI town. We will have to take Orchid and Baby Orchid there. I don't believe we've taken Uncle Dv there either. Can't remember.
Seven is getting birthday ideas in his head. While I don't think we will be hosting a party, I do want to do something fun for him. Perhaps pizza at a restaurant and taking a couple friends to the movies will work. Is it lame that a trip like that will be a great treat for my children? We do not go out to eat very often, nor do we see movies on the big screen.
Ah, another train at 4am. N wanted to consider a house that backed up to the train tracks, right before the main crossing in town. He' hasn't noticed how frequently that whistle goes off in the wee hours. I was able to point the whistle out to him a few times this past week. We are checking online for new listings, but haven't found anything we love yet. We haven't walked through any either. That will be our next step, hopefully sooner than later. I am getting excited at the thought of it. I really do not want to move, but know it will be great in the end. We've rented for the past 3 years. Time to plant my seeds from Iris!
I think the snack desire will prevail this morning. My charging cord keeps falling out and my legs are falling asleep. Guess the chair isn't my ideal location for now.

Resurrection Eggs

Four just came home from preschool with her resurrection eggs. In the car, she told me the story and meaning behind each egg. It was the sweetest thing I've ever heard! I only wish she would have done it the same when we got home. She was embarrassed and got silly. I did tape her sharing the eggs, but it wasn't the same. I love all the great things she has learned at preschool this year. It gave me the idea to tape some of the things she has learned at church on Monday nights, too. I'd like to go to her classroom and record her explanations of the artifacts. She's come a long way this year! We are very proud of her.

Organization

N posted a calendar next to our computer desk. I didn't think much of it. Then today, I noticed Six took it upon himself to cross out the days in March that have gone by. He also wrote Seven's Brfday on the right day. He is counting the days in March because of reading month. Such a sweet guy.
Today we purchased a new blanket for the new baby. We have some blankets, but I wanted one to be just for her. It's pink with an elephant. We also got her going home outfit with an elephant. We're getting excited!

False alarm

I almost thought she was coming on Saturday night. I woke up to strong contractions at 2:30 am. They got stronger and more regular. I didn't wake N until 4:15 or so. I decided to call the doc. Wouldn't you know, once I called, they stopped. Complete stop. Not one after. So, I called back and they said I could stay home. I was surprised by the contractions and felt silly after, especially since this is my fourth time around. I followed the dr. guide lines and called when they said I should. Poor Azalea got up and came over. I didn't call her until the last minute either. It was a trial run and it all worked out.
The crib is up, clean and ready. We got a package from Rose and her family. What a wonderful surprise that was. I placed my online orders and those items should arrive this week. Bags are packed, plan is in place. We haven't taken any pictures lately, perhaps that is something we should do. Other than a name, I think we're ready!

What to do with Six

He sort of drove me crazy yesterday. He's been slacking on picking up. Poor Seven does most of the work. I finally got some sense into him last night. Seven cleaned half the room. I told Six he had ten minutes to get it picked up or he was losing money from his jar. After complaining, the timer was started and what do you know, the boy can do it! He's been taking forever to get dressed and complete any task. The tally mark situation worked for awhile. It still works with Four. She will do anything to avoid a tally mark. Six doesn't seem to mind if he gets one and has to do two good things to get it removed. Not a big deal to him.
He's such a character. His name means laughter, you wouldn't believe how many times he is the one in the group that makes us laugh. This morning, I went into the boy room. They were all playing Lego's. I said good morning and they all repeated it to me, except for Six. He sounded like a news anchor, with much enthusiasm.
I am so proud of him and reading lately. March was reading month and they kept track of how much they read. He's missed only two days the entire month. He has taken the initiative and has wanted to read every day. Yesterday, he was on Skype with Baby Orchid, reading to her. I almost questioned his book, it was about mummies and skeletons. Didn't phase her one bit, even made her giggle when he showed her the pictures.
Six is an original, we'll keep him around. He can be such a sweetie, and yet such a challenge. It's all about balance, learning and realizing when to push or let go. He's grown up so much in the last 3 years. When we moved here, you had to watch out. Those were the most challenging years with him by far. School has done wonders. He is also the one who shows the most attention to the baby belly. He always remembers to say good night and give it a kiss. This is repeated when he gets on the bus as well. What a guy. He'll make a great big brother, again. I think the age distance might work out to my advantage this time around.

Something for myself

Today I purchased some new pj's for myself. Why it takes the arrival of a baby for me to do this, I do not know. I have not purchased new pj's, only once, the rest are from before Four was born. It's amazing what doing something like that for yourself can make you feel. It's hard to balance life, schedules and the budget. We are forever challenged by this. I try to be as frugal as I can. I shop at Goodwill and Salvation Army for certain items that make perfect sense to purchase there. The budget still seems to be a challenge. Groceries are so expensive compared to when our kids were babies. Everything seems high price in MI. I am sure so is the case elsewhere in the country.
In the end, I didn't pay full price. Sure, I will be sporting some pj's with an owl and a green St. Patrick's day hat that says something about being lucky. Oh well. At least the owl is cute. On to new things!
We enjoyed a nice play date with Daisy. I love visiting with her. We haven't had time together without other kids around and distractions for quite awhile. I was able to confirm God parents today after my play date. Daisy and Zinnia will be God parents to this baby girl. We still don't have a name for her yet.
I'm also in the process of getting my "what if" plans final. I think I've got it figured out. It's like a balancing act that involves all of my flowery friends.
I am so blessed to have such support. For a girl who started out in MI feeling so alone, 3 years later things look very different.

Shower wishes

Today some of my local friends honored me with a luncheon at the local pub. It was such a nice afternoon. I was so grateful and thankful they took time out of their day to join us in honor of this baby girl. Daisy, Ivy, Zinnia, Bluestar, New Moon, Azalea, Sweet Pea and her mom, and my wonderful neighbor all joined in for a baby celebration. These are my closest local friends. It was great to have them in one room. We sat and had a nice lunch, fabulous cake and great company. I did feel guilty that Four wasn't there. She would have loved it. I was tired and in the end, just happy to sit and not worry. I am very blessed to have found such a great group of girls to call my friends. They are supportive and have touched me in different ways. It was truly a terrific day.

Real contractions

Had an appointment today and real contractions! Painful, stop you in your tracks contractions. Crib assembly is going on as I type. Once that is ready, we should be prepared for baby girl.
Some girls are taking me to lunch tomorrow. Should be a nice time. No kids, Four has lunch bunch. Bake sale day tomorrow. Hope I can pace myself. After the real contractions, I'm not too intimidated by them anymore. Doc said she'd like me to wait two more weeks, but wouldn't be real aggressive to stop labor. I had a test taken today. Four was with me by myself. She got to go the nurses desk during the test. Didn't think about that part bringing her along. I only want so many questions from her.
Still no progress on the name. Hyacinth pointed out everything has been different with this pregnancy, guess picking the name ahead of time will just be added to the list.
During my stress test today, baby girl was not cooperative. The nurse would find a good reading, and baby girl would move. I told this story to the boys, but claimed she was playing hide and seek from the nurse. They giggled at that story. They are really excited for the baby to come, though I don't think they have a clue what it will be like.
That's all for now. Tomorrow should be a great day! The temp is supposed to cool down. It already feels better tonight.

It's a hot one

Today is even warmer than yesterday. We finally got a pump to blow up the pool. N and the kids did all the work. They are out in the yard having a grand time. I am a little surprised how loud Four is. I don't remember thinking that last year. Wonder what the neighbors think.
We got a crib mattress today! More progress for Baby Girl. Now to set up her crib and wash the bedding. I have half of it washed, we're getting there.
N's sister had her baby in the wee hours of the morning. She had a girl, 7 lbs 4 oz 20 inches long. No word on a name yet. Very exciting for that side of the family.
I'm nearly done with my pre-baby purchases. I still need a shirt and tie for Seven for confirmation. Got the shoes, pants and one shirt. Hope to find a black tie to go with the green shirt. Easter baskets are nearly complete. Hospital bag is half way packed. Just need to order a few things online.
Six came home sick today. He had a fever. He was up during the night complaining his belly hurt. A dose of motrin and he wasn't staying out of the pool. What can I do. It's really warm inside the house. He's happy outside. We'll see how he feels at the end of the night and in the morning.
We go see the doc tomorrow. I can tell she's moving down. Yesterday I was really uncomfortable. It's getting more difficult to walk at times. Certain places are uncomfortable to sit too. Just a few more weeks left.
It's meal time, better coordinate the rest to go with N's pork chops he's grilling.

5:30 AM is for the birds

Two days in a row getting up this early is too much for me. Today, I woke up starving. Yup. You'd think I hadn't eaten in days. I'm getting to the really uncomfortable stage at the end. She's still sitting pretty high though, don't think she'll make her appearance anytime real soon.
No name yet, he just gave me the thumbs down on my first pick last night. It's easy to give a thumbs down, but he's got no suggestions.
We're waiting on word about two other babies who were supposed to possibly arrive yesterday. Never heard anything, we shall see. One will be a new niece or nephew!
Today will be a cleaning day for Four and I. Laundry, bathrooms, floors, etc. Still need to pack that hospital bag.
The crib isn't set up yet and I have some items to order online. My sis gave me all new born clothing. I'm worried she won't fit into some. Most of my kids didn't for very long. The family will be here the end of the month, hopefully with more baby girl clothes.
Church last night went well. It's been too warm. I hate to be the one to complain about our weather, everyone else is loving it. As I am too, just wish it was cooler for this pregnant lady. Didn't think I'd have to tolerate these high temps during this pregnancy. Any other year, I wouldn't. The world is heating up I guess. How did I ever survive to pregnancies during the summer months in TX? Air conditioning, we refuse to turn it on now and have a high bill. I hate sleeping with the windows open, but it is a must lately. If only there wasn't a lousy train rolling through town at 5:30 am. Maybe living on the other side of the river would minimize that sound so early in the morning. I thought for sure some child would be down here to join me by now. Thankfully, they are all still asleep.

Just another average Sunday

Boy, did we make some progress this weekend! Yesterday, we were able to clean the garage. There are some areas that still need improvement, but it looks much better than before. Even better, the kids came up with three trash bags of outside toys to part with. I was thrilled with those results. We started a pile for the garage sale.
The progress continued with pulling out all the spring/summer clothing. I found out what areas are lacking and plentiful. Four will need some soccer shorts. Six doesn't need a thing. I'll still look for shirts and shorts for Seven.
With all that organizing, I came up with three trash bags of clothing to sell. We were able to price them and boy did that feel good! There is a mound of stuff in the basement that still needs to be priced and organized. I just started tossing things in that corner. It's chaos, but all heading in the right direction and off the floor. I washed all the snow pants and coats. Packed them away with the boots. I really hope we don't have to pull them out again. I still need to wash my coat and N's. I will keep some light hats and mittens out for cool spring mornings. Both boys have spring coats, but the girl does not. I am afraid her coat from Orchid is too small this year. She does have a great red sweater Gma had made for her. It's not water proof though. We'll be in the look out for a spring coat for her.
Today there will be a bake sale at our church. The teens of the parish are raising money for a mission trip. We made dinosaur banana muffins! I fit two in a sandwich bag and will donate them to the cause. With behavior issues yesterday, Four will be picking out the baked good we purchase and bring home. She was the best listener at bedtime. Seven may pick something too, depends on the prices. Six, he needs to earn back his privilege. He will need to do two good deeds this morning before church. The tally mark system is working for us. It's something he understands and realizes the consequences. When they don't listen, they get a tally mark behind their name. It takes two good deeds to erase the tally mark and earn the privilege back. So far, so good. Six is the most influenced by the system. Seven almost always does whatever he is told. Four does too, but can still have a slight fit here and there.
Bake sale after church and a wide open afternoon. The sun is shining already. Kids are happy upstairs. Dinosaur muffins for breakfast, it should be a beautiful day!

Beautiful nights

What a wonderful Friday night we had! Could not believe the temperature was so ideal for a picnic at the park. The kids ran hard and had fun. We packed up some sandwiches after school, took the left over snack from preschool and were out the door around 4:30. We stayed until close to bed time. It was nice.
Seven told Mrs. P we were just going to relax this weekend. At least that is what she told me he said. Guess we need to relax? N has the later shift today. I was hoping to get some work done, but I kind of doubt that will happen.
I'm still trying to get Seven's outfit together for his sacraments in May. I think I'll hit Walmart. We found pants and a green shirt, just need a tie and shoes. I'd like another shirt so he's not wearing the same thing at each event. He still needs to try on the pants.
Haven't ordered the crib mattress yet either. We found one online, just need to order it and have it shipped to the store. I plan to pack the bags today as well. Kids will want to be outside, I'm sure. So many were grilling last night. Too bad it was Friday for us. I really would like to fire up the grill today. Not sure where the day will take us. N worked late last night. We will see how long he sleeps in. The sun is shining and the forecast is looking good!

March Birthdays

Hard to believe it is 70+ degrees outside. Never would have guessed it. In the past, I have had a variety of birthdays. While in MN, most involved snow. My fifth grade year, pinatas were big. We had to hit one shaped like a giraffe in my garage. We also decorated our own cupcakes with tubes of frosting, M & M's and other candies. For sixth grade, I took three girls to Edward Scissor Hands, then to my house for a sleep over.
I had many great birthdays in my early days.
Once I left the nest, a very memorable birthday would be the year in Munich. We started the day off as a group at Titanic in English. Then off to Murphy's Irish pub. I loved bringing so many different people together. We ended the night at a disco. My friends gave me the biggest card I've ever received. It was a special day.
The neighbors in TX surprised me with a birthday! First time, I was really truly surprised. They caught me totally off guard. My 30th birthday was a great one too. We had friends over to our house. Daffodil brought an ice cream cake. Iris came and some others. It was really fun.
Today was great. It started after 6am when I went to see the boys in their room. They started to sing to me right away and added the cha cha cha's. They followed up with asking "are you one, are you two..." etc. they went all the way, adding a number.
Got everyone to school and enjoyed a nice lunch at a Japanese steak house. No kids, just N and Zinnia. It was nice to have adult conversation and great food.
We got a cake after picking up the boys. They managed to find the right number of candles and lit them all. With such beautiful weather, they played outside and ended with skype to G and G and Uncle Dv. Now for bed, this mama is tired.

Birthdays for moms

Four told me since tomorrow is by birthday, I only have to do the dishes, nothing else. Six thinks he's bringing me breakfast in bed. They also think we should have a party. Every day is a party with them.
Funny story: I was afraid my daughter was thief. After Christmas, she had a wooden box she got from Grandma. One day she told me "Never look in this box." Foolish me, I just assumed she was hiding gum or candy in her room. Didn't think anything of it. Last week, I see the box on her shelf, slightly open. I notice inside, a pair of earrings. These earrings are still on a card board from the store with a price tag on them. My mind starts racing, where did she get these earrings? Did she steal them after we had been at a store? I would never notice if she put something like that in her coat pocket. Could she have taken them from some big sisters at a play date? I worry and bring it up with N. Not sure how I want to handle it, I sit on the subject for a day, trying to figure out my approach. Wouldn't you know, the very next day she tells me she already has a birthday gift for me. She got it with Grandma and it's something for my ears to wear to church. Finally, the pieces of the puzzle fit together. My relief, she is not a thief. She's proud to give them to me tomorrow and said they could be from every one in the family. She has requested help wrapping them. We will see who jumps to her aid.

More progress

Slowly, but surely things are getting done. Slowly being the key word. I've started to take things at a snail's pace. This baby is wearing me out. She's 34 weeks on Thursday. Just a few more to go. Doc says we could go at 37-38. We will see how that works out.
MI cousins brought some baby gear and we had a great visit this past weekend. I was so thankful they made the trek to see us. It was wonderful to catch up with them. Wish we could see them more often.
Four had her first big girl birthday party to go to this past weekend. It was a tea party with fancy dress! Grndma insisted she get fancy shoes, a fancy hat and gloves. Lucky us, we found all items at Target. At the party, they had name cards, fancy sandwiches and of course, pink tea. They talked about manners, played games, decorated headbands. Four came home with flowers, feathers and a bird on hers! She had a great time.
Tomorrow is school spirit day. Seven wore his favorite school shirt today. He asked to wear it tomorrow. I can't let him if it's dirty, thus the washing machine is going and it will be clean for tomorrow. He's such a good boy, I try to accommodate when I can.
N took the day off to go fishing, too bad he didn't check the forecast first. It rained all morning. I think he relaxed and didn't regret being at home by himself.
Church tonight, I'm flying solo with Six and his class. Daisy has a meeting at the same time. I am really tired, but will rally for the cause. I couldn't tell her no, she does so much for me.
The neighbors gave each kid a $5 bill for watching the cat and fish during their vacation. The kids were really proud. They shared that we saw the cat twice during our job. They also brought over a ducky outfit and hat for the new baby. It was very sweet. They too offered to be on our call list if we need someone to get kids on the bus or off, etc. It's great to have such supportive people around during this time. We are truly blessed to live in this community.

You were once a cow, now you are a walleye

Trying to explain abstaining from meat to my kids, Six just didn't quite get it. Perhaps I am wrong, he showed great disappointment in having grilled cheese and tomato soup for lunch and supper. I heard Mr. D tell him that's being a Catholic kid during Lent. Seven seems to understand. You were once a cow, now you are a walleye comes from Fr. B's joke this past weekend. Of course, that went over the head of Six and he stood there asking me what was so funny. He tries in his own sweet way.
We attended our baptism preparation class/dinner this past week. Kids rode the bus to Zinnia's and we were childless for the meal. It was really nice to sit down and get to pay attention instead of worrying what they (our children) were up to. Fr. B said Zinnia was going straight to heaven for her efforts. Gpa Jck said something about not realizing Fr. B had a key.
The meeting left me with many thoughts and ideas. I am looking forward to the baptism day. We've been preparing Seven for his Confirmation and first Eucharist too. It will truly be a wonderful event for our family. I am thrilled it will bring us all together again. My family plans to attend.
Fr. B talked about prayer with our children, starting young. Don't think the early years before the age of two don't count. The real church starts at home. We are their first role model, best example to live the way we want the children to live. I admit, my flaw or failure is prayers at bedtime. I know I've written about this before. It's so difficult for me and it seems silly why. How hard is it to take an additional 10 minutes while putting my children to bed, to stop and pray with them, hear what they are thankful for today. Perhaps we switch to sharing this at meal time, but that too can seem rushed. One wouldn't believe how difficult this task can be. Alas, I find it a continued challenge. Four always remembers her prayers. She likes to say her prayer from preschool. She insists on it and hardly never forgets, thus the guilt eats away at me for not taking the time with the boys. We were on a role reading their bible at night too, but sorry to say that has not happened for quite some time. I just need to get back into these habits. I have many lame excuses, but probably the biggest one is how exhausted I am at the end of the day. Growing a person is also a lot of work. With all that is accomplished throughout the day, the night is selfishly for myself. It's the only time where its for me. I'm not basing everything in my life around them, usually I get to do something I want for myself. Usually, there are more things I'd like to do, but can't out of exhaustion. I will continue to try to make the change with this challenge. Put them to bed earlier so we have time to include a bible story and prayers. How do we get so caught up in play and entertainment? It's such a challenge to keep up with the schedule, homework, household chores, etc. We just need to make time, it's as simple as that. Make it part of the routine and we will succeed. After all, it's Lent. Time to change the challenges we face on a daily basis. Pray for me, that I can accomplish this change.

Happy Birthday, Orchid!

My little sister, today is her birthday. We've played phone tag all day, not getting through to each other. I really hope she had a wonderful day. She's such an important role in my life. All I could think of when we found out this baby is a girl, how thankful I am for Four to have a sister. I treasure my sister. Sure, it wasn't always like that. I remember just before my senior year how things changed between us. She finally got it. She wasn't just the annoying little sister anymore. We had many things in common. Our relationship wasn't ever really bad, but we were not as close until that turning point. Next thing I knew, I was boarding a plane to Germany and it seemed we didn't have enough time together after all. I had looked forward to seeing her in the hallway at school. I enjoyed being on the swim team. I also enjoyed working with her at the pool during the summer. We followed similar paths throughout those years. When I came back from Germany, she was almost done with HS and off to college. I am glad I was able to sort of be around for her senior year. My college choice was an hour away. I decided to go that direction because I had just been so very far away. I didn't miss out on much of anything.
She's always been there for me. I can call her with anything. When I finally got around to being back in the same area as her, once again, I felt cheated out of our time together. It was only a year. We made the most of it. She came over to our house and helped me with the kids on many occasions. I feel we saw her on a regular basis. It was great. My kids established wonderful relationships with her and Uncle T. They became a bigger part of their life. They made great memories, too.
Now Baby Orchid has joined their family. She is the most precious addition! We make the most of it with Skype, phone calls and emails. It will never be the same as when we lived only 40 minutes away. I wish I could have been there when Baby Orchid was born. I wish we could be there for her first birthday. Unfortunately, it's not in the cards. We will continue to cherish any and all the time we get, making the most memories together. For now, I wish her all the best from afar, hoping she had a great day!

Thursday is for white hats, shiny white shoes and soft white gloves

Today, Four and I hit it big! My expectations were low, Mum wanted us to pick up our titled items. Four has a fancy tea party on Saturday. These were the things Gma thought she needed. We managed to find all three at the same store! I had my doubts about the hat. Turns out, the toddler size still fit her head. The dollar section hat did not, but we did find the white gloves there. We got the last pair of white, shiny shoes in her size. She's going to feel great when she gets dressed up this Saturday for her first big girl party. I can't wait to take pictures and drop her off. Her ensemble reminds me of the little girls at the end of Annie. She is very excited. We were able to get her gift together as well. This too was pleasing to Four. We just had the birthday girl over to our house. We found the perfect gift. It should be a great day.
We headed to the doc today. Turns out I will be going on a small medication for the sugar thing. I had a high sugar every other day, once a day. I am not sure what to think about this topic anymore. Just when I thought I had things figured out, it goes slightly down hill. Could be worse. At least my contractions have stopped. The baby is moving regularly. My belly measures the same as last week. Still haven't come up with her name yet. Four has many opinions and ideas. She loves to talk about it.
Boys rode the bus to Zinnia's tonight. This is always a big deal and very exciting. N and I are having dinner at Fr. B's tonight. I have to get my chef salad together. I wasn't sure what to bring, but this is what I've been craving so, everyone like salad, right? Just have to chop up the ingredients and put it together. I even hard boiled some eggs. I also have some Indian relish left to bring as well. I just love Indian relish.
It was a long day of running around. I picked out some prescription sun glasses today at the eye doc's. Zinnia met me there to help me pick them out. I'm horrible at decision making lately. I'm even worse with getting things in the mail. I've been late with four bday cards and gifts this month. I've got two baby gifts ready to go. Just have to hit the post sooner than later.
N is off selling the car as I type. We met with the buyer last night. They called after a couple of hours and said yes, they wanted it. In the mean time, we had 5-6 people interested as well. I will miss that car. We brought home all our babies in it. I am thankful for our van and to have more space. We spent lots of miles in that car. Even thought I truly despised it, in the end, it treated us more than well. It was a great car and I hope the future owners get as much out of it as we did. They have five kids, but they are much, much older than ours.
Better get to my salad now, I've rested after a day of errands. Wish I wasn't so tired for tonight. I'm always tired at night. I'm 33 weeks today. Not too much longer considering she's letting me go until 37 or 38. We'll see how it all plays out. I really want to go into labor on my own. Depends on the numbers I guess. Babies have their own ideas as well. We'll see what kind of a start this one gives us. We sure are excited to meet her!

Positive

For how negative I was earlier this week, N sure had the opposite attitude. Last night after church, I was spent. He on the other hand, was thrilled. Everything seems to be coming into place. Three different people are interested in buying our car. He's meeting with someone later today after work. I've got an eye doctor appointment, hopefully for new prescription sun glasses. We're down to our last funds in the health savings account and need to use the money up before the end of next week. Maybe I'll see better this summer. I believe it will help the most with driving.
Kids were in good moods at church. We discussed thinking of others and made cards for the shut-ins of our parish. Daisy said I was RE nesting last night as I prepared extra activities for her for the rest of Lent. I wanted to have everything in order in case I bail on her. My weeks are numbered. I'm sure I'll still be there for a few more weeks. She'll take what she can get. Last night, I had lots of pressure. No contractions, but lots of pressure after sitting. It helped when I got up and walked around, but then that wears me out as well.
Seven lost his eighth tooth last night. Four took it upon herself to put it in a cup. This was not knowledge to me and I put the cup in the dish washer, didn't even hear the tooth fall out. Seven was disappointed, not for losing the tooth, but worried the tooth fairy wouldn't find him without a tooth. Lucky boy, she did find him anyway with a wrinkly $1 under his pillow. He was once again, content and happy.
As soon as N brought the bassinet inside from our friend, Four was there to try it out. She had her baby doll Lucy wrapped in a blanket, laying in the bassinet. Since then, books and a few baby toys have been placed underneath. N's cousin is delivering some other baby items this weekend. Once I have those, I think I'll figure out how to take all the fabric off the bassinet and get it all cleaned up. I fell bad for complaining earlier this week. I am so grateful to all who have shared things with me for this last baby.
Still no progress on the name subject. We just haven't discussed it any further. I have asked around about a name I like. I know someone from home with that name. Couldn't get N excited about it though. After getting her response, I'm a little more excited about it. It's sort of unique and she really liked it growing up. We'll see. We've got a few more weeks.
I best try to get back to sleep now. It's been over an hour since I've been up. We're watching a friends kiddos in the morning to lunch time. One is four, the other 18 months. He will keep me on my toes in the am! I need all the rest I can get in preparation for his arrival.

Improvement

Happy to say my attitude is heading in the right direction. One session of card making with Zinnia and I'm in a better mood. Things will get done, we will figure it out.
Four had a great day at preschool. To continue the good mood, we surprised the boys at lunch. I have been doing this on a weekly basis, unintentionally. I never know until I'm in the car heading that direction if I will go. I like being noncommittal about it and surprising them. After, I'm exhausted and ready for a nap. Rarely to I nap.
This afternoon Four and I will get the laundry done and we need to come up with something for dinner tonight. Tomorrow, we bring an eighteen month old into the house along with his big four year old sister. That should keep me on my toes! He's a sweet baby. Looking forward to some fun.
Church tonight and we start feeding the neighbors cat and fish. Oh my, are we excited for this job to begin! It's the highlight of everyone's day.

Struggling, do I really post this?

Too many issues came up this weekend, causing me to board on the negative, pessimist train. I guess it started before today with the water in our basement. Friday night, I was exhausted, but when we saw water, had to get everything up off the floor. Just kept moving until all jobs were done. Talk about kaput. Now today, for some reason I found myself doubting the plans and getting things done. It just seems like we constantly settle with things. I've been walking around with a hole in my shoe, hoping people don't notice. Frustrating. Irritated that I negotiate buying new shoes and rugs as my birthday presents. These are such practical things, do other expect or reason in a similar way? How did I get on this pity bus?
I also received an email about a new sleeper for infants. I just happened to pick up a bassinet from a friend to use today, I couldn't help but be slightly disappointed. I really appreciate her letting me use it, but was surprised at how much it will need to be cleaned. I guess I wouldn't have stored it in that condition. The disappointment came when I realized I couldn't just go and spend the $50 on the new one I just saw today. Reason, they only use it for such a short time and why buy something new like that when this is our last baby? Still, the thought crossed my mind and frustrated me.
After all these thoughts of myself, I thought back to mass this and last week. What am I thinking? This is Lent. This is a time to WAKE UP and not be thinking of myself. We don't have it bad. We are practical. Our kids are healthy. Others seem to give in so many ways. How do these negative thoughts creep on in? So, for now I commit to trying to change my thought process. No more woe is me, pity parties about what I need and don't have. I'll make do, figure it out. The Lord will open my eyes and show me the way. That's all I can ask for.

The name game

It's 4am and I'm awake. Haven't been in this position too much lately. Even with such a busy day, I'm surprised to be awake. It's hunger. Not sure why, but I'm hungry and don't want to go downstairs, wake anyone up in the process. I have to remember to bring a snack upstairs one of these days.
Delivery of this baby is getting closer and closer. We still do not have a name. You'd think since we found out she is a girl, that would make it easier, but has not so far. I guess in a way it is easier since we only have to come up with a girl name and not a possible boy name as well.
I've also been thinking of what to pack in my hospital bag, not sure why I feel so clueless there, too. Have to google it I guess. It's been awhile since I've done this, just can't remember the things I should want with me. Rumor has it if all goes well, I won't be there too long anyway. Apparently they don't keep you in very long around here. With Four, I was there practically an entire week.
We've had name suggestions from the kids. Some have been more interesting than others. Some have been more practical than others. Their influences can be seen by names of their classmates. Last year, Six had a good friend who was a girl. When coming up with name suggestions for Orchid, he shared that little girls name as his idea. She is the sweetest little girl,but just not a name I'd like to use.
We get so many compliments on Four's name. I'm really happy with all the names we've chosen. It's a lot of pressure. This is what the child will be called for the rest of her life. Spelling can be an issue. All my life people misspelled my name. Never really bothered me too much. Four will experience that, I'm positive. We tried to keep it as simple as we could without adding extra letters. Some spell it with two L's. I also like to have a name with a great meaning. Seven's name means Light. It's Greek. Six means Laughter, it's Hebrew. Four means My God has answered me, also Hebrew. They all seem appropriate for who the child has turned out to be. Seven is the light of my life. He's such a great kid. So smart, practical and kind. He's got a great heart and seems to be in tune to my feelings, emotions, needs, etc. more so than the others. I'd say it's his age, but he's always been like this, the one to pick up on how I'm feeling. Six is the joker of our group. He can always be counted on for a giggle. When he was little, he had this little musical note of a few beats he would say automatically along with whatever else he had to say. N still does this and Four did for a period of time. Every once in awhile I'll catch Six repeating it, but it's usually because N has said it recently. And then there's Four. After her birth, we moved and N spent 3 months in Oklahoma. Her being a girl after two boys was such a wonderful surprise. My grandmother prayed every day for her to be a girl. We all just fell in love with her. She was the sweetest baby. When N went to Oklahoma, the children and I went to live with my parents. I couldn't stay home alone for that long of time with two toddlers and a newborn. I don't remember that time being too difficult. One would think so, but with the support of my family and friends, we made it through just fine. It was hard to be away from N. The boys did great. Some of the issues we had during my pregnancy with Four, the meaning of her name just seemed to fit once she was here.
Alas, what to do now. It's not something I'll solve now at 4am. Maybe I better go get a snack. My tummy is starting to rumble. Guess I really am hungry.

New rules to follow

Things are not as bad as I'd like to think, but I am not up to running around cleaning everything always anymore. This morning, I was irritated. Everyone had stuff in every room, near total chaos. It has and could have been worse, nevertheless, still irritated me. So, as I was cleaning it all up, I wrote down new rules. They will have to follow these rules, or face consequences. Some of my new rules are such as:
--If your laundry is not in the hamper, it will not be washed. I am not going to be responsible for you not having your favorite socks, pants, shirt, etc. still dirty on the day you want to wear it. It is up to you to get it to the right location.
--No more straws in this house unless they find their way to the trash as soon as you are done using them.
--All coats, hats, gloves, shoes, boots must be in the closet or on a hook.
--If the kid cabinet in the kitchen is messy, all the pretty, colorful dishes will disappear. Kids will use plain, white dishes only.
--We've created a place for everything; put it away.
My other problem is asking them to do things, it takes too many times of asking before the task is done. I decided to post their name and give them tally marks. The boys know what tally marks are, we will explain them to the girl. Every task I request, they get one tally mark. More than one tally mark per request and they miss out on whatever the treat is for that day. Treats will include chocolate milk, poptarts, cookies, granola bars, ice cream, candy, etc. Anything else that is extra special for that day.
We will see how this works out for me. I know it can be done. Seven does it every day. He is only a year older than Six. The other two can do it as well, they've just gotten lazy about listening.
My other task this weekend is the basement. We must part with things. They have out grown some of the toys down there. We don't need to keep all of them. I will save some things for this new baby, but not everything. It will be many years before she is playing down there. Why keep it in chaos? I was not happy with how they left things down there this week. On Saturday, that basement was all clean. By Wednesday, it was trashed. They didn't even play down there on Monday, we were at church. I had given them the costumes to play with. They left costumes all over the floor. If they can't keep it together, the costumes will disappear soon along with other choice items in the house. I just don't have the energy and refuse to live with a mess. They've seen what a real mess is and know it is not acceptable in my world. More participation won't hurt any of us. Hopefully teach them to be responsible for their actions. I stay on top of all their papers by giving each child a bin. If they want to keep their art, current project, etc. it goes in their bin. This part has worked out very well. I don't have stuff all over the kitchen and living room anymore. They also have a shelf in the laundry room with art/coloring books and supplies. Between these two areas, we manage to keep those items under control.
It's all a work in progress. I just hope to make further improvements. We're going to have to add baby items to our living space sooner than later. The chaos must be cleared by then.

Six weeks to count down

We had our ultra sound today. Turns out baby girl is two weeks ahead of schedule. She's already 5 1/2 lbs. We saw great pictures of her face and think she has Four's nose. Tonight, the kids ran around the living room yelling "Six weeks until we get a new baby!" They were really excited. Still no progress with a name. Why is this so difficult? Maybe we just need to look online together.
All looks well and we may deliver during all the children's spring break. Amazingly, they are on the same spring break this year. Might work out to my benefit. Hard to believe it's nearly here. We still haven't set up a location for her to sleep yet. At least we have the car seat. I also need to get more baskets and wash all the clothing. Good times to come!